Ika-dalawang kaarawan sa pangalawang buhay

From this (left - oct 2010) to that (right - oct 2012)

Happy 2nd Birthday to my 2nd life. (Oct.2)
2 years ago i survived a motorcycle accident, did an angry bird fly when we bumped into a tric, i flew all the way from chicboy to the secret place in Ligtasan and was almost hit by a car 2 feet away from me:)) confined for a week and wasnt able to walk for 2 weeks.. Afraid that i wont be able to walk, dance and run again, but i strived , helped myself and never gave up. Now im fit and blessed for everything. I never let a day pass without thanking God for this opportunity of a lifetime. I hope and pray that this wouldnt be the last but i promise to never waste this given life again. Lord, You are awesome. You're the best!

God's Calling

During my quiet time last night....

Naalala ko in 2008 when i was a college freshman in UST, my room mate Ate Grace invited me to go to church at Victory ubelt. But i wasnt able to attend cause my life was a living hell, being a Fine Arts student, i dont have time to do anything else except to do my plates and study.

Just this year, my bandmate invited me again to attend at Victory Ubelt because he said he'll be playing, so i did. At first i was clueless, but then i
 stared to sing and dance with the crowd during praise&worship.. It was fun! I enjoyed the whole service. And asked for moooorre! so i searched online for more Victory Centers got their schedules and poof the rest is history. Now, my local church is at Victory Greenhills where i have my Victory Group and where my spend my weekends.

it took me 4 years to accept God's calling but i know that He has a purpose why i didnt attend before. He has His reasons why now my week isnt complete without me attending church. He has touched my life. If not because of Him, i will not be the person i am today. He taught me how to love unconditionally, to be still, to be patient, to seek more of Him, to be prayerful and thankful. God is really good!

Lord, thank you for not giving up on me and for opening my heart & mind to possibilities & opportunities :)

4-DAY-DATE WITH GOD :)

ang sabi ko 3 days lang kami magde-date ni Lord, but no! we dated for 4 consecutive days. LOVE! :)

a few days before i posted a video of Hillsong entitled GO! and i knew something amazing would happen this week, and it was more than i expected :D

[1st day] WORSHIP NIGHT is theee best! people were speaking in tongues and everybody was just praying for each other, we were singing and dancing and jumping while praising & worshiping God. service was over and we were still shouting & asking for MOOOORREE! haha thou we had to end it cause the mall is closing already haha. My Victory group leader made me cry when she was praying for me, we havent seen each other in months and i havent told her anything but when she was praying for me, eveything she said was like, BOOM! how'd you know? God is just amazing!

[2nd day] CATS, MONSTERS & BROKENHEARTS week1 at Victory Ubelt. i had fun today. I attended the 7pm service with my Pakner and Mylove, take note its Lorraine's first time to attend Victory (im sooo happy!!!) . the Church is just over-flowing, imagine 5000 people were there to worship God. And im glad that Lorraine could join us, and she told me "nabitin ako!" HAHAHAHA.

[3rd day] WAY HOME week1 at Victory Greenhills. i had lunch at Theatre Mall with my Labz and Madam Heart. i was really surprised when Labz asked me if she could come with me at Neon (Youth Service). and the heck, i said YES! regarding the song GO, we did sing it during the service and my heart skipped a beat when they played it and it started to have meaning in my life which i was questioning for the past few days. When Ptr. Bojo and Ate Ronna started to pray for me, i felt the presence of the Holy Spirit talking to me thru them. i am in awe.

[4th day] SUNDAY WORSHIP  Let Us week 1 at Victory Greenhills and ONE2ONE chapter 3&4 :D having a one2one partner is just a blessing. where you can tell them everything & will help you with what you're going through. Repentance has been very "matunog" for the past days, and this day, all we tackled about was repentance. Repentance is turning away from sin and turning to God. if ever we are willing to change ourselves, we should always make a 180 degrees turn, cause if you make a 360 degrees turn, you're just going back to the old you. But we should always remember where we came from.

-- this was the best week for me! :) A week with God, a week of blessings, a week of Joy! :)

[JULY 2] 1 year and 9 months sa pangalawang buhay

LORD, THANK YOU sa isang buwan na naman. sana maraming taon pa ang ibigay niyo sakin. aalagaan ko na po ang buhay ko at iiwas na kapahamakan. maraming salamat din po sa magandang buhay na meron ako ngayon. Di ko kailangan ng lovelife kasi sa 20 years kong nabubuhay, ikaw lang ung lovelife ko na hindi ako iniwan kahit kelan :) THE BEST KA LORD! kaya naman love na love kita :*

WikiChurch : Empowering the Church

napahanga mo na naman ako, Lord! :)
Ptr. Jason's preaching earlier (6pm) is pretty much what happened to my day.


on the way to Manila, i was reading my bible, particularly the Book of Matthew. i kept on reading & eventually got dizzy :)) so i stopped at Matthew chapter 6 :)


its a chapter that says DO NOT WORRY, trust God all the time. it says in the bible Matthe 6:33 "but seek first the kingdom of God & his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well." i was meditating in this verse for a while, and then nung Tithes & Offering na, yang ung verse na binasa ni Ptr. Bojo. i was really surprised, like WOOOAH! is this de ja vous? :D


going to Greenhills from Pasay, we were caught by a MMDA officer not wearng our seatbelt. :| oo ABALA! so i was nervous that maybe i wont be able to go on time for the 6pm service. while my dad was arguing with this officer, asking for 1500 (the fudge!) and telling us (750 nga lang po pursyento ko jan ehh), tapos humihingi pa ng lagay. grabeee!!, on my mind, i was praying for the officer na sana kahit papano palagpasin na nya kami, kasi he caught us nung palagay pa lang kami ng seatbelt, we didnt see him actually na andun, sumulpot bigla. :| i prayed and i prayed, and pinakalma ko sarili ko that everything will be fine, tapos boom! the officer gave back my dad's license without ticket and said "ingat na lang po kayo sa susunod, para din nmn po sa safety niyo to, wag niyo na pong uulitin".. haha PRAY, it works :)


sa preaching ni Ptr. Jason, tungkol din sa violation sa daan. when he was caught swirving along EDSA, he did the same thing, he prayed and asked the officer for forgiveness for what he did wrong, funny thing he was listening to worship songs so th officer asked him "pastor po ba kayo?" ptr.jason said "hindi, nagchuchurch lang ako".. then the officer gave back his license and said "sige na nga, ang bait niyo kasi" hahaha seee! 


lesson here is, God will give you everything but He will not give you everything in an instant, we just have to ASK. , & never forget to thank Him for everything. Ask and you shall receive. Dont you just love God? He's Amazing! — at Victory Greenhills.

PRODUCTIVE SATURDAY

wasn't able to go to the Radio Station this morning cause we took my Labrador, Marley in San fernando , Pampanga to meet her Boyfriend Maxie :)) 


went home at past 1pm, and i took a nap til 4pm. Took my mom to the SPA for some pampering and went to SM to buy new shoes for ME! yeyyyy. 


while shopping, i saw my all time Kumare, Tria :) after 8 long months, nagkita rin kami. finally, we're okay na rin, nothing beats old friends parin :)


had dinner at Classic Savory with my mom parin. naisip ko lang, it's father's Day tomorrow pero si mama nakakailang araw ng nagpapalibre sakin :)))) sa buong araw na to, ako gumastos samin dalwa, tapos sasabihan nya kong ang gastos ko daw. LOL

NOSTALGIC :'(

source : http://annesoriano.multiply.com/tag/blogs

i ran over my blog on multiply and re-read all my posts and i was crying like a baby. (im still crying while doing this blog) . Realizing how f*cked up my life was then and comparing it with myself today, is still the same. It hurts, knowing that i was being stepped on before, not having the courage to fight back in favor of the person i love(d). of course, you wouldn't do anything stupid to make that person hate you, so all you gotta do is follow what he wants. Hanggang ngayon all i do is follow orders, so that that person wont get into trouble.

ung feeling na inaaway ka ng isang babae at ung tropa ng babae na hindi mo naman kilala, at hindi ka rin kilala. But the way they say things about you, to you, as if they've known for a long time when all they've heard was your name. tapos kapag sasabihin mo naman dun sa taong involve ung mga ginagawa sakin, ako pa ung mali. ako na nga yung inaapi, ako parin yung mali. hindi ko galak na maisip na pinabayaan ko ung sarili ko noon, when ALL I DID WAS TO LOVE.

im the kind of person who always GIVES and never asks for anything in return. I've always been generous. Kahit na lagi akong may kaagaw sa taong gusto ko, i always give way cause i believe in the saying "hindi ka naman magmamahal ng pangalawa, kung mahal mo talaga ung una." but im always hoping & praying that someday, they'll be back. but neither of them came. i just proved myself that when i love, I LOVE DEEPLY. that i don't give up easily. i may not always get what i want, but i know that i've worked for it very hard.

People do crazy things when they're in love, like WAIT. para sakin kasi, how can you prove a person that you truly love him , that he's the only one in your heart, when in just a matter of time, you're loving someone else already. that's not love, that's counting sheep! We can make WAITING productive, by making that person an inspiration to make yourself a better person, so that when the time comes & things aren't still the way you wanted it to be, you can tell the world, that you have loved truly, you have loved in a good way, that it has brought goodness in your life instead of being a pathetic emo always finding a way to kill yourself.

15 Simple Ways to Keep Your Partner Happy

by:David Wygant




So you're in a relationship and your partner starts nagging. She tells you that you just don't understand her, and that she really wishes that you would just do more "little things."
It's not the big things that make her happy; it's paying attention to the little details and showing you care that is really meaningful. She doesn't necessarily need lavish gifts -- she needs to know you're thinking about her.


Here are some ideas to get you started doing these "little things" she really wants:


1. Rub her feet instead of asking her if she wants you to rub her feet. Make it look like you want to do it.


2. Make her dinner one night. Don't ask her if she wants you to make dinner. Make her dinner before she gets home.


3. Light a candle so that she arrives home to a nice environment instead of coming home to the glaring lights of the television and other things.


4. Send her a text in the middle of the day telling her "I miss your smile from this morning" or "Last night was amazing!" or "The conversation we had last night was great."


5. Send an eCard in the middle of the day... something cute to remind her how much you really care about her.


6. If she's going on a business trip, offer to drive her to the airport or pick her up to make her life that much easier.


7. Let her have control of the remote control. Don't monopolize it for a change. Just give it to her and let her actually sit there and enjoying watching one of her shows. Then you can share one of her interests by watching it with her.


8. Offer to iron one of her shirts or take her clothes to the dry cleaner.


9. Clean up the bathroom without being asked. Don't just sit there and ignore the mess around the toilet. If you know it drives her crazy to see water splashed all around the sink, dry that area after you use it.


10. If you work out together, enjoy it with her instead of rushing through your own workout and then not letting her workout at the same time.


11. Take a shower together, then wash her hair, scrub her back, and give her a spa treatment. Do this and enjoy it!


12. The next time she gives you a massage, give her a massage the next day. Offer it! Don't just say you'll give her a massage...do it!


13. Surprise her by making plans. Tell her, "We're going out tonight honey." You can even just go out for a drink or dinner somewhere. It's taking the initiative that's important.


14. Decide on and set aside one night a week as date night. Have a date like when you first started dating.


15. Call her in the middle of the day and just say hello. Don't wait for her to call you.






It can be simple to keep her satisfied. It's not necessarily about what you give her financially or what gifts you give her. That's a cop out. It's the little things. The guy who makes the biggest mistake is the one who ignores their significant other then all of a sudden give them an expensive gift to make up for it. That doesn't make up for it at all.

PAGPAPATAKBO NG BUHAY

1. “Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..”


2. “Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.”


3. “Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.”


4. “Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.”


5. “Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”- Hahaha Sabi naman ni Juan tamad, “Babalik at babalik parin ang elevator, kaya mas maganda na maghintay ka nalang”




6. “Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”


7. “Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”


8. “Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”


9. “Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang.”


10. “Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una.”


11. “Hindi porke’t madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa.” -


12. “Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka.”


13. “Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority.”


14. “Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya.”


15. “Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo.”


16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala.”


17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”


18. “Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!”


19. “Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal…nakakatakot mahulog…at kapag nahulog ka, it’s either by accident or talagang tanga ka..”

PASUKAN NA!

JUNE 13 DAW ANG PASUKAN! HINDI PA KO NAGE-ENROLL! :))

eto na naman! sinabi ko na sa tatay ko na June 13 ang pasukan. tapos sasabihin niya "bakit hindi ka na lang dito sa Tarlac magaral?" gaaaaaaahhhh!!! You don't know how its like to study in a school where everybody knows you and your family :| Where anything you do, everything you do is talked about in every corner of the school. Yung feeling na lahat ng mata ng mga tao sa school parang CCTV Camera :| not to mention the instructors :| where the meddle with kids stuff :/ instead of counselling the students, they pick sides WHICH IS WRONG!!!! with my 2 years stay in that school, i can really say that I DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING AT ALL! so why the heck did i graduate? yes im excelling in most of my subjects, but its not enough. like now, its been a year since i graduated college, i cant remember anything i was fed! i want to learn! i want to study more! i want a better resume. i want a better job!

[May 25] Once Upon A Time -- an all ladies event at Victory Greenhills :)

in this picture im with Ate Yeng Constantino, a famous musician and a Christian, also attending Victory. She was our speaker for this event and Ate Ronna Bonifacio, the wife of Pastor Bojo :D

i was crying when Ate Yeng was narrating her love story. She was also in tears, actually. It was really heart breaking, nakita ko ung sarili ko sa kanya lalo na dun sa huling taong minahal nya (pero hindi naging sila)

nagaminan sila na they like each other, na favorite nila ung stripes, na favorite channel nila ung Discovery Channel :)) lumalabas sila ng silang dalawa lang, nagmimilk tea sila ng 2 lang, tumatambay sila sa kalsada na silang dalawa lang. ehh hindi nga naman nanliligaw or what, hanggang sa dumating ung time na, ung mga ginagawa nila noon, ginagawa narin ni lalake sa ibang babae.. ANG SAKIT KAYA! kasi wala ka nga namang karapatang magalit o magselos sa knya. pwede pero sasarilihin mo lang ung pagseselos na un, na hindi niya pwedeng malaman dahil mali. kaya bumalik ulit sya kay God, and asked "Lord, bakit hindi na namn ako at peace?"

-- ganyan din naman ako ehh, bawal magselos, bawal magtampo, bawal magalit. OTHER WOMAN nga daw ang peg :)))) pero ayun, when i talked to Ate Yeng, she said na, dont forget to seek for God's help, pray for the people you love and dont be idle, because during our idleness is when the devil attacks us. She also said, "hindi bawal umiyak, natural lang na masasaktan ka kasi nagmamahal ka ng tunay." at the end of the day, the Lord still loves us. — at Victory Greenhills.

[May 6'12] I SURRENDERED EVERYTHING TO GOD - A DAY FULL OF BLESSINGS

When I woke up this morning, I plurked "SURRENDER ALL THAT YOU ARE TO JESUS TODAY" before going to Sunday Worship.


Today's preaching of Pastor Chinkee Tan struck me like BULL'S EYE! Everything he said was like, all about me, I can relate to everything that he says and i was crying my heart out while we were praying. And he even called out for the people who hasn't surrendered their lives to Jesus, and I was one of them. He asked us to come in front and then everybody in the church prayed for us. I cried even more when Ptr. Chinkee is praying for us, like he knows what's on my mind, what i'm hidding, the things that I can;t share. I FELT REJUVENATED. I was like born again. From that plurk, i really didn't expect any of this to happen today.


I also had my Second Chapter of one2one : LORDSHIP.
again. Yesterday I posted on how I should cut my expenses already cause I spend waaaaaayyy too much in a day for a person who is unemployed. There's a part in that chapter that says I should trust God and surrender my finances with Him. like OMG!! i realize these things before it if fed to me.


Since Friday from Victory Ubelt, i was singing U SURRENDER by the Planetshakers repeatedly. na-LSS ako. I didn't get the message right away, that it has something to do with my life in the coming days.


Today is very miraculous! Everything is falling into place; the right place; the right path. If this is how you want to intrude with my life, so be it Lord.


LORD, I'M SO HUNGRY OF YOUR PRESENCE, More than anything, i need you more! thank you for all the blessings You're pouring to me. From this day forward, i am surrendering my whole life to You, Lord.

ALMOST PERFECT : A Personal Perspective

to know me better is to hear things FROM ME and not from what others think of me. 

"You know my name, not my story"

 

i'm THEW (not chew/dew/matthew) , born and raised in the city of Tarlac.

my mom is from Bulacan while my Dad is from Manila.

i dunno how we got here in Tarlac but i shall find out,SOON! :D 

i have 3 sisters. Ate Pen who's a Medical Physician already with 2 kids. Ate Anjo, my favorite one. And Kang who just graduated high school this year :) my mom works for the government and my dad is a retired bank employee.

i'm not your average girl from the province. our family may be small but we quite earn a reputation here in Tarlac.  we came from a very rich family. my Inay (lola) is one of the richest widow in Tarlac back in the days. where she own lots of big lands, gives money to those who make 'utang' , she also have her own scholarship program. and now, the said lands are now named after US. like yeah, each and everyone of us owns a land already.

RELIGION.

catholic. i grew up in the church. i go to mass every Sunday with the whole family when i was young. until i started to go to church alone. at first it didnt bother me 'cause i like being alone (im not a loner!) / going to church by myself because i can pray solemnly, i can concentrate with what im doing, away from temptation (chatting) and the like, and ohh, i cry when i pray.. & then it came to me, like, SUnday is supposed to be a time for God and a time with Family ; when all i have is myself as a family :(  when i was in my nursery to preparatory years. i go to a Baptist school, where they teach us lively songs about God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit. my favorite part is the Bible Study., i dunno but i love hearing the word of God.. then i transferred to a catholic school when i was in elementary to high school. i do liturgical dance, i sometimes join the choir, i volunteer for church activities.. etc. in college, i started to hangout with INC's, sabadistas, methodists and born again christians. i learned their ways, their practices, etc. not to fit in, but to respect their beliefs. just this MArch, i start attending born again christians' services. my friend said who is a born again christian " the greatest feeling in the world is to see someone you love praising God with you" and indeed it was true. though i was clueless when i first entered their hall until my 2nd time. i never thought that i would go back to their church, i never told my friend that I WANT MORE OF WHAT YOUR CHURCH PREACHES, i went online and searched for other branches near the condo, and voila! i found my home church, VICTORY GREENHILLS :) wherein i go to church 3x a week :)) friday to sunday. every Sunday morning, i go to Catholic Mass at 9am and attend Sunday worship at 10am :) seeee.. i love GOD!!!  i'm a church person!

SPORTS.

im a Runner. won several gold medals for 100m, 200m & 400m run. & i join fun run wherever available.

im a Softball player. BEST PITCHER when i was in 4th grade. i was also one of th best softball student in PE1 (college).

im a Soccer Player. i was th Captain of the Tarlac Women's Team in 2008 & was awarded BEST STRIKER during our lil league in Corinthian Gardens. this has to be my favorit sport! i gt to go to far places just to score some goals! :) im proud of myself cause there was never a time that i didnt score. we may not always win, but having to goal for your team is a very big thing already. 

im a Swimmer. i may be small, but you cant drown me! :)) oohh ohh, i can surf too! :D

im a Badminton Player. won several silver medals for Doubles & Single match :D im super duper extra careful with my rackets, it breaks my heart having to lend them cause my racket doesnt have any scratches or anything. (a few, maybe 3 to 5), besides from its a gift from my mom from Vietnam, its expnsiveeee HAHA

MUSICAL ORIENTATION.

im a dancer. since i started schooling. from folk dance, ethnic, jazz, hiphop, lyrical etc. BRING IT ON! im a cheerdancer from 4th/5th grad to Senior High. i was also the captain of the FIRST cheerdance varsity of our school. was awarded MOST OUTSTANDING DANCE TROUPE MEMBER when i graduated high school. i earn money, by teaching. i make friends, by teaching. when i was in college, i was a university scholar, i auditioned for the university's Dance Troupe and oh wll, i got in! :) its tough being a scholar because you hafta maintain good grades and go to training everyday.

im a singer. it runs in the family sooo i dont hafta explain further HAHAHAHA. 

i play the piano. started to play the piano when i was 4 years old. im really not updated with th new songs cause i grew up playing classical music like beethoven, rachmaninov, etc. haha by myself, im learning how to read piano chords instead of notes :D goodluck to me LOL

STUDIES.

when i was in elementary and high school, im not very studious. i fail my exams, i cheat, "pinapasa-Diyos lahat", but not all the time.. im an average student :D when i stepped in to College, everything changed. i always get an UNO for a grade, my project was even displayed at the UST Museum. i was cluelessly at the top of the class until i heard my instructor talking to my dad :)) i sometimes cheat, but most of the time im teh SOURCE of answers hahahaha thoug i graduated college without an award, it was cool, cause its waaaaaaayyyy beyond my xpectations. like i said "i was cluelssly at the top of the class" :)) when it comes to reviewing. im not much of a reader. rather, im very attentive at school, there's a huge difference between LISTENING & HEARING, right? well im more of a listener, and i jot down notes non-stop. soo when i listen and i write, I LEARN. yan ang stock knowledge! :))  i do review but i just read, not memorize and stuff :)) i have A GOOD MEMORY. especially when it comes to history :D

 

BROADCASTING.

 im a disc jockey in our local radio station. and we kind of own 1 of the 2 leading or the only 2 radio stations here in central luzon :D ssooo its more of a hobby dj-ing instead of "work". i also enjoy joining News casting & impromptu speech contests :)) 

COWBOY.

im more of a guy person. i mean, i enjoy spending time with the boys rather than the girls. where we can talk about cars, video games, guns and ammos , computers, sports & girls :)) i'm not makikay and stuff, though i have a girly side but mostly boyish. im not a butch OKAY. others say im MALANDI cause i always hang out with the guys, when the guys im hanging out with says YOU'RE ONE OF THE BOYS / LALAKE KA EHH!  you can take me to drinking sessions whether its in the barrio, farm, kanto, music bars, pokpokan house :)) , park&shot, lele tete :)) , ajang nokarin! i drink with whoever my friends' friends are, i have my FULL TRUST with my friends. i dont care kung anung stado mo sa buhay. tambay, squatter, walang trabaho.etc. hello!? i eat & sleep with our helpers in the hacienda, i take naps in our kasambahay's room, give me a malong, sapin or even a cardboard box & i can sleep on the floor (sa lupa man ito o sa maalikabok na simento). The world isnt a clean place, so deal with it! BAWAL MAARTE, LASLAS PULSO! MIND YOU, I SLEEP WHEN IM DRUNK, when im talkative while drinking, means im still in good condition. HAHAHAH i know my limits naman ehh :)  i get offended when i eat in carinderia's and people will say "ang yaman yaman mo sa carinderia ka kumakain". like! im also human!!!!! mas nakakamatay kayang kumain sa fast food lagi! tsaka hello!? nagtitipid :))

FRIENDS.

i have a lot of friends. may plastic, may totoo, may manggagamit, may chismosa, may mapagmahal, may heart-broken lagi, walang Diyos, walang pamilya, mayaman, mahirap. all kinds. i dont try hard to fit in when i meet new people with those kinds of personality o pagkatao. like i said, COWBOY AKO. ayaw ko sa mga taong FEELING CLOSE agad ung kakakilala mo lang. its too much! 

DAY TIME TRAVELER.

 i travel a lot! by myself , with a friend or with my family, domestic and international. i've been to mostly all parts of LUZON. i love going to beaches, get tanned and fight with the waves. i prefer travelling by land and by water rather than by plane, because there's more to see when you travel by land/sea. unlike by plane, sure there are lots to see, but you can only see the top view of a place you cant even tell what it is :)) travelling alone is not an issue, when i say i want to go to this place, i will! i have my own car, but i prefer to commute because its cheaper and its a way where i can learn how to go to places, how to manage my finances and its fun to get lost sometimes :)) hihi im a back-packer. its easy to travel without a huge luggage. i always have my camera and my laptop wherever and whenever i go for excarsion. and oh, my lilttle blanky :))

PLANNER.

in life, we should always have a game plan. :) i always have my planner with me wherever i go. i write all my appointments, what happened the whole day, what i bought, whom im with etc. so every year i enjoy looking back at my planners, read my notes & remenisce. before doing anything else, i always make plans. everything should be in order.

LOVE.

this is a tough one. :| i love, uncondtionally. 

family. i love my family, di ko sila ipagpapalit sa kahit ano. and i will never ever leave them behind. they're my OHANA! they taught me how to love and how to forgive. they taught me not to hurt anyone physically and/or emotionally. God loves us. Family loves us. 

Boyfriend. when i love. i give everything that i can. full support, understanding, care, LOVE, patience, tolerance, etc. i learned how to hurt and how it feels to be in pain. i've been through a lot, and by a lot, i mean, YES! A LOOOOOOOOTTTTTT. more than you people can imagine. naging-TANGA, nagpaka-TANGA, nagpapaka-TANGA, TANGA-TANGAHAN. all the measures of stupidity! i always give and never receive anything, i dont care. im not a materialistic person. i have everything that i need, kaya i always give, i share what i have. i was once a battered girlfriend :( pero hindi ko na pinatagal ung relasyon na 'yon. i fight for what i love. sabi nga sa commercial "habulin mo happiness mo".. i love seeing the person i love happy, even if it doesnt include me in his happiness. the feeling of being heart-broken is not new to me. akalain mo, single ka na nga, broken ka pa :))) healing takes time. no matter how long it'll take, all the scars and wounds will be cured. you'll never forget them but it'll serve as a lesson :) im the type of girlfriend na, wlang bawal basta alam mo ung limits mo, i will not change you for who you are. kung paano kita nakilala, ganun kita tatanggapin. nasa sa'yo na un kung magbabago ka for the better or for worse. Hindi ako selosa, but i learned how to when i met someone verrrrryyyy sweet, TO EVERYBODY! :| ayaw ko ung feeling na nagseselos! kainis! :))

FRATERNITY.

yesss. im a member of a fraternity/sorority. a proud member of the 

SCOUTS ROYALE BROTHERHOOD :)

i joined in 2009 when i was in 1st year college in University of Baguio under Phi Alpha and i was the first lady of my chapter :) i've been through alot also in this organization, but it didnt stop me from participating. SRB is my second family, you can always count on them in times of need and if yer in need of a companion. hehe 

FOOD.

aint a food critic, thats for sure. but im a lil choosy with what food tastes like. :D though i eat almost EVERYTHING given to me or prepared for me hahaha. im a meat lover! i dont eat a lot of veggies. i dunno, maybe because they're tasteless LOL.  im an eating machine! i eat nonstop, until my jaw starts to hurt hahaha. im not conscious whether my tummy'll get bloated, as long as my tummy's happy HAHA ANG TUNAY NA BABAE NAGEEXTRA RICE! :) i also enjoy eating street foods, and ihaw-ihaw :D yummmy. LUTONG BAHAY is the best! im into big burgers too :D ohh ans PASTAAAAA..ohh lala!

COSMETICS / HYGIENE

COSMETICS? NOT FOR ME! hahahaha i mean, i do use a face powder and lipstick. other than that, no more :D i dont use facial wash, toner etc. basta something that has to be placed on my face. i dont use whitening products because i have a natural white skin. i dont use deodorants :D i use TAWAS. ohh yeah, my mom is very makasinaunang panahon ehh.. it doesnt smell and it doesnt stain :) i dont take a bath as often as i should HAHAHAHA like, for example, im at home all day, and have no reason to take a bath, then i wont HAHAHAHAA im a fan of nail polish :D i used to bite my nails hahaha, pag naka-nail polish ako, no bitting! :)))

HOUSEHOLD.

my family says i have a sickness. HAHA OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder LOL well, i do agree. i like to organize everything. from the cupboard, the drawers, clothes, food, EVERYTHING! i like a clean environment. My room may be messy at times but when i clean, ohh I CLEAN the whole room and even change the positions of the furnitures for better FENG SUI (im chinese!) . Im not a good cooker, but i am learning from my mom and more from my sisters. I do the laundry, feed the dogs, water my mom's plants, iron the clothes, wash the dishes,  baby sit my younger sister and my pamangkins

-- there's more to life.  sana kahit paano, na-enlighten kayo kung anung klaseng tao ako. wag judgemental!

what you see is not always what you get. ask & never assume. KAPISH? parang kulang pa ito. pero dadagdagan ko na lng pag naisip ko HAHAHA