NOSTALGIC :'(

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i ran over my blog on multiply and re-read all my posts and i was crying like a baby. (im still crying while doing this blog) . Realizing how f*cked up my life was then and comparing it with myself today, is still the same. It hurts, knowing that i was being stepped on before, not having the courage to fight back in favor of the person i love(d). of course, you wouldn't do anything stupid to make that person hate you, so all you gotta do is follow what he wants. Hanggang ngayon all i do is follow orders, so that that person wont get into trouble.

ung feeling na inaaway ka ng isang babae at ung tropa ng babae na hindi mo naman kilala, at hindi ka rin kilala. But the way they say things about you, to you, as if they've known for a long time when all they've heard was your name. tapos kapag sasabihin mo naman dun sa taong involve ung mga ginagawa sakin, ako pa ung mali. ako na nga yung inaapi, ako parin yung mali. hindi ko galak na maisip na pinabayaan ko ung sarili ko noon, when ALL I DID WAS TO LOVE.

im the kind of person who always GIVES and never asks for anything in return. I've always been generous. Kahit na lagi akong may kaagaw sa taong gusto ko, i always give way cause i believe in the saying "hindi ka naman magmamahal ng pangalawa, kung mahal mo talaga ung una." but im always hoping & praying that someday, they'll be back. but neither of them came. i just proved myself that when i love, I LOVE DEEPLY. that i don't give up easily. i may not always get what i want, but i know that i've worked for it very hard.

People do crazy things when they're in love, like WAIT. para sakin kasi, how can you prove a person that you truly love him , that he's the only one in your heart, when in just a matter of time, you're loving someone else already. that's not love, that's counting sheep! We can make WAITING productive, by making that person an inspiration to make yourself a better person, so that when the time comes & things aren't still the way you wanted it to be, you can tell the world, that you have loved truly, you have loved in a good way, that it has brought goodness in your life instead of being a pathetic emo always finding a way to kill yourself.