Ika-dalawang kaarawan sa pangalawang buhay

From this (left - oct 2010) to that (right - oct 2012)

Happy 2nd Birthday to my 2nd life. (Oct.2)
2 years ago i survived a motorcycle accident, did an angry bird fly when we bumped into a tric, i flew all the way from chicboy to the secret place in Ligtasan and was almost hit by a car 2 feet away from me:)) confined for a week and wasnt able to walk for 2 weeks.. Afraid that i wont be able to walk, dance and run again, but i strived , helped myself and never gave up. Now im fit and blessed for everything. I never let a day pass without thanking God for this opportunity of a lifetime. I hope and pray that this wouldnt be the last but i promise to never waste this given life again. Lord, You are awesome. You're the best!

God's Calling

During my quiet time last night....

Naalala ko in 2008 when i was a college freshman in UST, my room mate Ate Grace invited me to go to church at Victory ubelt. But i wasnt able to attend cause my life was a living hell, being a Fine Arts student, i dont have time to do anything else except to do my plates and study.

Just this year, my bandmate invited me again to attend at Victory Ubelt because he said he'll be playing, so i did. At first i was clueless, but then i
 stared to sing and dance with the crowd during praise&worship.. It was fun! I enjoyed the whole service. And asked for moooorre! so i searched online for more Victory Centers got their schedules and poof the rest is history. Now, my local church is at Victory Greenhills where i have my Victory Group and where my spend my weekends.

it took me 4 years to accept God's calling but i know that He has a purpose why i didnt attend before. He has His reasons why now my week isnt complete without me attending church. He has touched my life. If not because of Him, i will not be the person i am today. He taught me how to love unconditionally, to be still, to be patient, to seek more of Him, to be prayerful and thankful. God is really good!

Lord, thank you for not giving up on me and for opening my heart & mind to possibilities & opportunities :)

4-DAY-DATE WITH GOD :)

ang sabi ko 3 days lang kami magde-date ni Lord, but no! we dated for 4 consecutive days. LOVE! :)

a few days before i posted a video of Hillsong entitled GO! and i knew something amazing would happen this week, and it was more than i expected :D

[1st day] WORSHIP NIGHT is theee best! people were speaking in tongues and everybody was just praying for each other, we were singing and dancing and jumping while praising & worshiping God. service was over and we were still shouting & asking for MOOOORREE! haha thou we had to end it cause the mall is closing already haha. My Victory group leader made me cry when she was praying for me, we havent seen each other in months and i havent told her anything but when she was praying for me, eveything she said was like, BOOM! how'd you know? God is just amazing!

[2nd day] CATS, MONSTERS & BROKENHEARTS week1 at Victory Ubelt. i had fun today. I attended the 7pm service with my Pakner and Mylove, take note its Lorraine's first time to attend Victory (im sooo happy!!!) . the Church is just over-flowing, imagine 5000 people were there to worship God. And im glad that Lorraine could join us, and she told me "nabitin ako!" HAHAHAHA.

[3rd day] WAY HOME week1 at Victory Greenhills. i had lunch at Theatre Mall with my Labz and Madam Heart. i was really surprised when Labz asked me if she could come with me at Neon (Youth Service). and the heck, i said YES! regarding the song GO, we did sing it during the service and my heart skipped a beat when they played it and it started to have meaning in my life which i was questioning for the past few days. When Ptr. Bojo and Ate Ronna started to pray for me, i felt the presence of the Holy Spirit talking to me thru them. i am in awe.

[4th day] SUNDAY WORSHIP  Let Us week 1 at Victory Greenhills and ONE2ONE chapter 3&4 :D having a one2one partner is just a blessing. where you can tell them everything & will help you with what you're going through. Repentance has been very "matunog" for the past days, and this day, all we tackled about was repentance. Repentance is turning away from sin and turning to God. if ever we are willing to change ourselves, we should always make a 180 degrees turn, cause if you make a 360 degrees turn, you're just going back to the old you. But we should always remember where we came from.

-- this was the best week for me! :) A week with God, a week of blessings, a week of Joy! :)

[JULY 2] 1 year and 9 months sa pangalawang buhay

LORD, THANK YOU sa isang buwan na naman. sana maraming taon pa ang ibigay niyo sakin. aalagaan ko na po ang buhay ko at iiwas na kapahamakan. maraming salamat din po sa magandang buhay na meron ako ngayon. Di ko kailangan ng lovelife kasi sa 20 years kong nabubuhay, ikaw lang ung lovelife ko na hindi ako iniwan kahit kelan :) THE BEST KA LORD! kaya naman love na love kita :*

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napahanga mo na naman ako, Lord! :)
Ptr. Jason's preaching earlier (6pm) is pretty much what happened to my day.


on the way to Manila, i was reading my bible, particularly the Book of Matthew. i kept on reading & eventually got dizzy :)) so i stopped at Matthew chapter 6 :)


its a chapter that says DO NOT WORRY, trust God all the time. it says in the bible Matthe 6:33 "but seek first the kingdom of God & his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well." i was meditating in this verse for a while, and then nung Tithes & Offering na, yang ung verse na binasa ni Ptr. Bojo. i was really surprised, like WOOOAH! is this de ja vous? :D


going to Greenhills from Pasay, we were caught by a MMDA officer not wearng our seatbelt. :| oo ABALA! so i was nervous that maybe i wont be able to go on time for the 6pm service. while my dad was arguing with this officer, asking for 1500 (the fudge!) and telling us (750 nga lang po pursyento ko jan ehh), tapos humihingi pa ng lagay. grabeee!!, on my mind, i was praying for the officer na sana kahit papano palagpasin na nya kami, kasi he caught us nung palagay pa lang kami ng seatbelt, we didnt see him actually na andun, sumulpot bigla. :| i prayed and i prayed, and pinakalma ko sarili ko that everything will be fine, tapos boom! the officer gave back my dad's license without ticket and said "ingat na lang po kayo sa susunod, para din nmn po sa safety niyo to, wag niyo na pong uulitin".. haha PRAY, it works :)


sa preaching ni Ptr. Jason, tungkol din sa violation sa daan. when he was caught swirving along EDSA, he did the same thing, he prayed and asked the officer for forgiveness for what he did wrong, funny thing he was listening to worship songs so th officer asked him "pastor po ba kayo?" ptr.jason said "hindi, nagchuchurch lang ako".. then the officer gave back his license and said "sige na nga, ang bait niyo kasi" hahaha seee! 


lesson here is, God will give you everything but He will not give you everything in an instant, we just have to ASK. , & never forget to thank Him for everything. Ask and you shall receive. Dont you just love God? He's Amazing! — at Victory Greenhills.

PRODUCTIVE SATURDAY

wasn't able to go to the Radio Station this morning cause we took my Labrador, Marley in San fernando , Pampanga to meet her Boyfriend Maxie :)) 


went home at past 1pm, and i took a nap til 4pm. Took my mom to the SPA for some pampering and went to SM to buy new shoes for ME! yeyyyy. 


while shopping, i saw my all time Kumare, Tria :) after 8 long months, nagkita rin kami. finally, we're okay na rin, nothing beats old friends parin :)


had dinner at Classic Savory with my mom parin. naisip ko lang, it's father's Day tomorrow pero si mama nakakailang araw ng nagpapalibre sakin :)))) sa buong araw na to, ako gumastos samin dalwa, tapos sasabihan nya kong ang gastos ko daw. LOL

NOSTALGIC :'(

source : http://annesoriano.multiply.com/tag/blogs

i ran over my blog on multiply and re-read all my posts and i was crying like a baby. (im still crying while doing this blog) . Realizing how f*cked up my life was then and comparing it with myself today, is still the same. It hurts, knowing that i was being stepped on before, not having the courage to fight back in favor of the person i love(d). of course, you wouldn't do anything stupid to make that person hate you, so all you gotta do is follow what he wants. Hanggang ngayon all i do is follow orders, so that that person wont get into trouble.

ung feeling na inaaway ka ng isang babae at ung tropa ng babae na hindi mo naman kilala, at hindi ka rin kilala. But the way they say things about you, to you, as if they've known for a long time when all they've heard was your name. tapos kapag sasabihin mo naman dun sa taong involve ung mga ginagawa sakin, ako pa ung mali. ako na nga yung inaapi, ako parin yung mali. hindi ko galak na maisip na pinabayaan ko ung sarili ko noon, when ALL I DID WAS TO LOVE.

im the kind of person who always GIVES and never asks for anything in return. I've always been generous. Kahit na lagi akong may kaagaw sa taong gusto ko, i always give way cause i believe in the saying "hindi ka naman magmamahal ng pangalawa, kung mahal mo talaga ung una." but im always hoping & praying that someday, they'll be back. but neither of them came. i just proved myself that when i love, I LOVE DEEPLY. that i don't give up easily. i may not always get what i want, but i know that i've worked for it very hard.

People do crazy things when they're in love, like WAIT. para sakin kasi, how can you prove a person that you truly love him , that he's the only one in your heart, when in just a matter of time, you're loving someone else already. that's not love, that's counting sheep! We can make WAITING productive, by making that person an inspiration to make yourself a better person, so that when the time comes & things aren't still the way you wanted it to be, you can tell the world, that you have loved truly, you have loved in a good way, that it has brought goodness in your life instead of being a pathetic emo always finding a way to kill yourself.